Grrrr

It's my second day of my Masteral classes today. And guess what? I was late again for my class - owing to the fact that the prayer meeting ended quite late last night (around 11 pm) and Oying and I celebrated our 41st (three years and five months) monthsary... :) Actually, it's not more of a celebration -- we just had a sort of midnight snack together with Ate Ima, Kuya Malo, the Lim's (Mama Lye, Veldz, Veia, and Povs), and Angela V, at the Burger Machine after the prayer meeting... Our initial plan was to go to Shell Select, but then again, we changed our minds when we saw them in the burger store. Going back to my tardiness issue in my class today, in all due fairness, I woke up early -- at around 5 am. But before I prepared for school, I decided to surf the net to research on the topic to be discussed in my first class... I got so engrossed researching to the extent of losing the track of time. And to make things worse, my research was USELESS! Grrrr! We were told to read on Communicative Competence... but she only discussed about the definition of communication. I should've known... :(

As for my second class, we were dismissed an hour ahead of time since it's only our first meeting. She only discussed with us the introduction to the course, and that's it...

Right now, I'm alone in Ate Tess's home. My honey and Kuya Malo went to a talyer (car repair shop) to have the car aircon's cleaned.

Since I'm home alone, I took the opportunity to check my email and to blog as well. :) There is this email that caught me - it's from my mom's sister... To be honest, I was quite hurt and insulted by her email. And so, i decided to reply it and really aired out my feelings... I don't care if she'd be mad or what, but I JUST HATE IT THE WAY SHE MEDDLES WITH MY LIFE!!! GRRR!!!

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Here's my email to my tita to whom I'm greatly pissed off with...

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hi! sorry for the late reply in your email. i've been busy for the past days. thanks for the concern, but i am currently teaching in a regular school - its actually a non secular school somewhere in taguig city. i'm teaching english to 2nd year to 4th year students. in addition, i'm also teaching science to grade six students and home economics and livelihood education and computer technology to grade four students. aside from that, i've been also given extra responsibilities in school - like being adviser of the sophomore students and moderator of the school paper. i'm currently enrolled in philippine normal university. i'm taking up my master's degree in english language arts. and if God will allow it and if i could find resources, i'm planning to attend the international conference in singapore next year. its about teacher education in language teaching. actually, this is just one of the many plans that i have. i just got the feeling and impression that you think that i don't have any plans in my life because i've not been so vocal about it - even to nanay. well i do have a lot of plans. i just don't think that i owe it to anybody to explain what i want to do with my life. though, i do consult nanay and tatay from time to time to ask for their opinions on some matters. but i'm the one who makes the decision. i think i am responsible enough to make smart decisions. i know that i've done mistakes in the past, but it doesn't actually define my future. i know that i have a good future ahead of me... i have let go of my past... i've learned from them... and i believe that i'm much better now because of those past experiences. and for the record, i didn't feel any emptiness during the time when i was jobless. i was preoccupied with some of the activities in the charismatic youth group that i belong to. i feel that God has a reason why He allowed these things to happen. i believe that getting a job is not His ultimate reason for my existence here on earth. and you know, even when i was not working, God still provided for us - through nanay. i don't want to sound preachy (though that's one of the things that i love to do in the youth group) but to tell you honestly, i feel bad by your words. you may have meant so well, but then again, i believe that there's always a good and tactful ways of saying things. as i've taught my students, words are very powerful - for they can either make or break a person... i don't want to sound disrespectful, but i guess it's about time that i air out my insights.

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Don't get me wrong, though. I do welcome suggestions, constructive criticism and the like. But I guess, people really have to learn the art and science of being tactful.